Hello everyone! I've decided to continue the little tradition I established last year by commemorating the new year with a post looking back on the previous year and looking forward to the year ahead.
First of all, let me just say that this year was TOUGH. From the beginning, 2017 was not very kind to me. In January, I was accepted to my dream school (yay!), but unfortunately could not attend due to financial reasons (not yay). This took a huuuuge toll on me mentally and emotionally. My parents and I constantly fought about where I should go to school, and part of me felt as though all my hard work was for nothing and that I wouldn't be successful if I didn't go to a more prestigious school. This whole ordeal led to even more problems, as I struggled with most of my friends leaving me to go study in far away, exciting places, while I was one of the few still stuck in my hometown. This, in turn, caused a great spiritual depression. For as long as I could remember, I would pray for God to let me attend my dream college. Coupled with that, I worked so hard in school, sacrificing sleep and a social life to get into good schools. So when I didn't get what I prayed for, I began to doubt God. I just couldn't understand why he wouldn't grant me my wish when I felt that I was so deserving of it. So, basically, my 2017 kind of started out as a huge mess.
That being said, although this year has been one of the most difficult so far, it's been the one that's given me the most growth. Not attending my dream school has first of all, greatly humbled me (not gonna lie I was that person who was obsessed with prestige). And also taught me how to make the most of every situation. Sure, I may not be in an ideal position, but I'm here anyway so I might as well enjoy it! Because a lot of my friends left for college, I was kind of forced to step out of my comfort zone a little and as a result, I made new friends! And, it gave me an opportunity to strengthen bonds with my friends who I still had in my hometown. Lastly, and probably the greatest lesson I learned this year, God always has a plan. He knows what he's doing, even if you don't. I used to be desperate to leave my small town, but staying allowed me to remain active with my youth group, who always play a major role in my life, but especially this year. They were the ones who were with me through it all, and they were the ones who helped me get back on my feet. They were the ones who reminded me that I'm not living for me. All my problems this year stemmed from my selfish thoughts and actions. It was because of them that I remembered who I'm living for and my true purpose. Everything happens for a reason, and I believe that God has allowed these things to happen to me so I can grow.
And now, time for my 2018 resolutions!
1. Travel
I know I told myself that I would accept every opportunity to travel in 2017, but I honestly haven't done that. Although I can't promise that I'll become a jetsetter in 2018, I do want to try my best to simply explore more. Whether it be near or far, I hope to see more and experience more of the world in 2018.
2. Step Out of my Comfort Zone
I know I just said I did this, but I don't think I did it enough. I haven't gotten very involved at school, and I really want to change that this year by joining every organization I can that interests me. In general, I just want to pursue anything that interests me without fear (something that kind of intimidates me). I typically stay in my own little bubble, continuing to do what people expect of me. I hope that in 2018, I can follow my passions and share them with the world without being afraid of what people think.
3. Be Happy with Less
Recently, I've been exploring the concept of minimalism, and I've found it to be very intriguing. The concept of being content with what you have seems so obvious, but not widely practiced. We constantly want more and more of material things, and we're never satisfied. While I'm not sure if I can live a completely minimalistic lifestyle, I do hope to apply a lot of minimalistic principals to my life by doing things like cleaning out my entire room, sorting through all m belongings, and buying things only when needed.
4. Be More Fit
I know, this is a super generic resolution, but what's wrong with wanting to be able to climb a flight of stairs without wheezing? Also, ever since Wonder Woman came out this year, I've been inspired more than ever to become stronger. Obviously I won't look like the queen Gal Gadot herself (if only), but being 109 pounds and 5 feet tall, it would be really nice to feel like a strong, badass superhero.
5. Improve my Spiritual Life
When I was a kid, I was taught to pray every night and go to mass every Sunday. Unfortunately, that's pretty much the extent of my prayer. But I'm not a kid anymore; simply saying an Our Father every night and barely listening at mass doesn't really cut it anymore. In 2018, I hope to not only pray more, but pray more genuinely. I don't want my prayers to be passive, I want them to be a whole hearted conversation with God. I often hear that all it takes is 10-15 minutes of your day to have meaningful time with God, and that's something I hope to incorporate into my routine every day. In addition, I want to start going to daily mass at least once a week (in addition to Sunday mass), and going to adoration and confession at least once a month to help me achieve my ultimate goal of establishing a stable, solid relationship with God.
Thank you guys for all your support this year! I hope 2018 is good to you!
First of all, let me just say that this year was TOUGH. From the beginning, 2017 was not very kind to me. In January, I was accepted to my dream school (yay!), but unfortunately could not attend due to financial reasons (not yay). This took a huuuuge toll on me mentally and emotionally. My parents and I constantly fought about where I should go to school, and part of me felt as though all my hard work was for nothing and that I wouldn't be successful if I didn't go to a more prestigious school. This whole ordeal led to even more problems, as I struggled with most of my friends leaving me to go study in far away, exciting places, while I was one of the few still stuck in my hometown. This, in turn, caused a great spiritual depression. For as long as I could remember, I would pray for God to let me attend my dream college. Coupled with that, I worked so hard in school, sacrificing sleep and a social life to get into good schools. So when I didn't get what I prayed for, I began to doubt God. I just couldn't understand why he wouldn't grant me my wish when I felt that I was so deserving of it. So, basically, my 2017 kind of started out as a huge mess.
That being said, although this year has been one of the most difficult so far, it's been the one that's given me the most growth. Not attending my dream school has first of all, greatly humbled me (not gonna lie I was that person who was obsessed with prestige). And also taught me how to make the most of every situation. Sure, I may not be in an ideal position, but I'm here anyway so I might as well enjoy it! Because a lot of my friends left for college, I was kind of forced to step out of my comfort zone a little and as a result, I made new friends! And, it gave me an opportunity to strengthen bonds with my friends who I still had in my hometown. Lastly, and probably the greatest lesson I learned this year, God always has a plan. He knows what he's doing, even if you don't. I used to be desperate to leave my small town, but staying allowed me to remain active with my youth group, who always play a major role in my life, but especially this year. They were the ones who were with me through it all, and they were the ones who helped me get back on my feet. They were the ones who reminded me that I'm not living for me. All my problems this year stemmed from my selfish thoughts and actions. It was because of them that I remembered who I'm living for and my true purpose. Everything happens for a reason, and I believe that God has allowed these things to happen to me so I can grow.
And now, time for my 2018 resolutions!
1. Travel
I know I told myself that I would accept every opportunity to travel in 2017, but I honestly haven't done that. Although I can't promise that I'll become a jetsetter in 2018, I do want to try my best to simply explore more. Whether it be near or far, I hope to see more and experience more of the world in 2018.
2. Step Out of my Comfort Zone
I know I just said I did this, but I don't think I did it enough. I haven't gotten very involved at school, and I really want to change that this year by joining every organization I can that interests me. In general, I just want to pursue anything that interests me without fear (something that kind of intimidates me). I typically stay in my own little bubble, continuing to do what people expect of me. I hope that in 2018, I can follow my passions and share them with the world without being afraid of what people think.
3. Be Happy with Less
Recently, I've been exploring the concept of minimalism, and I've found it to be very intriguing. The concept of being content with what you have seems so obvious, but not widely practiced. We constantly want more and more of material things, and we're never satisfied. While I'm not sure if I can live a completely minimalistic lifestyle, I do hope to apply a lot of minimalistic principals to my life by doing things like cleaning out my entire room, sorting through all m belongings, and buying things only when needed.
4. Be More Fit
I know, this is a super generic resolution, but what's wrong with wanting to be able to climb a flight of stairs without wheezing? Also, ever since Wonder Woman came out this year, I've been inspired more than ever to become stronger. Obviously I won't look like the queen Gal Gadot herself (if only), but being 109 pounds and 5 feet tall, it would be really nice to feel like a strong, badass superhero.
5. Improve my Spiritual Life
When I was a kid, I was taught to pray every night and go to mass every Sunday. Unfortunately, that's pretty much the extent of my prayer. But I'm not a kid anymore; simply saying an Our Father every night and barely listening at mass doesn't really cut it anymore. In 2018, I hope to not only pray more, but pray more genuinely. I don't want my prayers to be passive, I want them to be a whole hearted conversation with God. I often hear that all it takes is 10-15 minutes of your day to have meaningful time with God, and that's something I hope to incorporate into my routine every day. In addition, I want to start going to daily mass at least once a week (in addition to Sunday mass), and going to adoration and confession at least once a month to help me achieve my ultimate goal of establishing a stable, solid relationship with God.
Thank you guys for all your support this year! I hope 2018 is good to you!